Keepin’ It Real

While I sit here in the new/old house, feeling overwhelmed and nearly paralyzed, I thought, “How did I get here? How did my life become this?”

Six months ago I lost my house, so I moved in with my mother full time. For the past 2 years I had been splitting time between her home and my own. Most of our belonging went into storage, save for a few clothes and my paints.

Not the best situation, being away from my husband, but only a temporary one until we get back on our feet.

Then my mom loses her 3 year old home. Which means another move, back to my childhood home – the house she couldn’t sell which eventually lead to the foreclosure of her new home, the house that needs more cleaning, updating, painting, and maintenance then I can bear to thing about.

I was so overwhelmed by all of this that I couldn’t begin to write about feng shui. It just felt hypocritical. How could I – someone who lost not one, but two homes, write about creating a space full of harmony and blessings?

Now – I’ve never claimed to be a feng shui expert. I’m a student. An enthusiast. Yes, I’ve taught classes, but I think I’ve learned more from my students than they from me. Yes, I’ve done home consultations, but I think I’ve spent more time on the consultations than the clients did on making adjustments to their home. But still, I enjoy sharing what knowledge, or lack or it, I have with Blogland.

How did I wind up here, after making all the necessary feng shui adjustments to my home(s)?

Then it hit me – I changed things in the houses, but didn’t change my thinking. You may or may not subscribe to positive thinking and the Law of Attraction, but – to me – it’s the one constant, the one thing that makes sense. Yet, knowing that, knowing feng shui principles, I’m still in a situation that is hard for me to fathom.

So the tone and tenor of this blog is changing for a time. I’ll be sharing all my trials and tribulations (and hopefully successes) of cleaning, updating and painting the new/old house, and all the feng shui adjustments and effects (if any). I’ll be candid about my thought patterns in the hopes of helping some of you, not to mention myself!

I want to thank those of you who have hung in with me so far, and will continue to hang in there for the nitty gritty of cleaning a very old house – and I’m not just talking about the one with four walls, I’m also talking about the house inside my head!